Needing to start this day with some positivity. I have been up since four, spinning in my head on how to make this just another day, have no expectations, and praying for the courage to do what is in front of me.
Luckily with the amount I have packed in today, there won't be much time for thinking (distact, distract, distract), perhaps that is why I thought starting it with some reflection on what is important to keep in focus would be wise.
Yesterday, I finished up step six with my sponsor. In the moving on section, the question was asked, how do you see yourself without these character defects, what do you see yourself 'being' in terms of career, mother, friend, goals. My answer was I want to...
Take care of me and my responsibilities...recovery, sleeping, eating, taking care of the house, bills, etc
The best mother I can be...present, fun, consistent
The best teacher I can be...present, prepared, inspiring
The best partner I can be...patient, respectful,interdependent
Bring positive to the world...don't isolate and do what I do
Fill my life with things that uplift my soul...painting, guitar, good friends
So, how to do that today?? Since I woke up so early, I will be heading to school to make sure that I am prepared, change my seating charts, and praying for where I can be of most service. I don't have my kids today, so I plan on dropping off a valentine to them at school today and giving them the biggest hug and kiss ever and telling them how much they mean to me. I will be going to group therapy twice today and then to a meeting. And, somewhere in there I am going to work on my art blog and try to pick up my guitar, which has been collecting dust for 2 months.
First though, I think I am going to do a litle reading, prayer and meditation.
Just another day?? No!! Making the most of this day!!