I was on my way to my regular Tuesday night of sponsor, step work and meeting when I got the call. One of my friends with about 30 days went out. She called me from the bar.
FUCK!! Pick up the stupid phone before you drink!!
She asked me to come pick her up, so I did. What a reminder of exactly what I look like and more importantly, what I feel like when I am drinking. In a few words...miserable, hopeless, and bankrupt.
I am so grateful tonight to know that there is a solution. I am grateful that I am willing to use the tools to get and keep me in a place of peace and serenity, despite life happening. I am grateful for a higher power working in my life, even if I don't always understand the plan. I am grateful to an awesome sponsor, my supportive friends and family. I am grateful for my life today and everything in it, the seemingly good and the seemingly bad.
Not to leave the story unfinished, we are going to a meeting tomorrow. What an honor to be in a place to be the hand of AA tonight!