Just woke from my peaceful slumber to feelings of PANIC.
I am way too happy!
My life has shown me that it never lasts, so prepare yourself. My head still can tell me you don't deserve it, you are a fraud. Run, run, run before you get hurt. Don't let anyone too close, you can't trust them.
I don't want to do this today. I don't. I want to stay present to experience the joy in my life without the question of, how long will it last this time? Questioning it keeps me from giving myself fully to it. Staying in this moment, right here, allows me to silence my scared, misdirected Crazy Melissa and find serenity. So, hanging up my future tripping crown for the night and attempting to find my peaceful slumber again.