I totally feel like my life is this giant, million piece puzzle right now. I've got a bunch of the background stuff done. The corners are coming together nicely, but I can't quite figure out what it's suppose to look like and fuck if I haven't lost the top, so I can't cheat and look at the finished masterpiece to help me see what part I should be putting together next. Is it a beautiful river scene, with a full moon reflecting off the water or something totally different?
What's the right thing to do with my kids? What should I be doing about my career? And relationships?...UUGGHH
I know I can't sit by and do nothing, expecting everything to fall into me, but I also can't sit in this spinning mind of mine and force my will in every situation.
What I have been told is...Surrender the outcome. Do the next right thing. Stay open to paths in front of me. Be willing. Leave the rest to my higher power.
I sure would like to see the top, but for today I will trust that whatever the scene, it's going be better than I ever would have imagined for myself.