When I started sponsoring other women, I was so excited to give back what was so freely given to me. To somehow put a dent in the debt I thought I owed. To share my experience, strength and hope with someone else. To share with someone how I have gone from the point of feeling like I could never quit drinking, being completely broken, knowing I was a total piece of shit and thinking that I would never be able to do things any differently, to the place I am at today...truly believing that I am a woman of worth, doing my best to be the woman I was meant to be (most days...progress, not perfection). What a gift!
What I didn't expect was how much this act would help me. There is nothing like working with another addict to get me out of myself. My sick head shuts up, my racing and obsessive thinking stops, and my self pity slips away. Suddenly, I am not in my head. I am in the solution, my recovery gets stronger, and I stay clean another day. I would say that these women will never know the gift they have given to me, but I believe they will someday, when they share their experience, strength and hope with someone else and they give and get that gift back.
Shout out to my girls...Thank you for being a part of my recovery. Thank you for allowing me the honor and privilege to be your sponsor. I love you.